25. Something happened!

Guess what?! Something happened! A few months ago during medium circle night, it was a subtle but actual “Heck Something’s Happening!” moment, and it took me a while to process it, but now I’m ready to share it with you. So get comfy, slip into your onesie, open that secret bag of pork scratchings and put your reading glasses on.

No? Just me then.

DECEMBER CIRCLE NIGHT
It’s another dark and cold night outside, but we’re all safely tucked up in one half of the hall, the partition wall is again in place and circle has begun. The actors are still rehearsing their ‘play’ on the other side of the partition so we are subject to the usual shrieking, shouting and dragging of chairs from their side. They are SOoo dramatic. Don’t they know we are trying to contact the Spirit world over here? The Spirit world is really really quiet! REALLY quiet! The actors don’t take too kindly to being asked to keep the noise down either. But this time our group leader is prepared for battle. She has an armful of drums, a plan and her potty mouth. She’s brilliant.

Whilst the actors now sound like they are replicating the invasion of the Body Snatchers, we turn all the lights off and sit in darkness. I hear the sound of the drums coming out. I’m told they are Bohdran drums. All wide and flat and beautifully painted. So in the darkness at least 3 or 4 of the circle gang start drumming out a single beat in a slow powerful rhythm:

‘BOOM’….’BOOM’…’BOOM’…BOOM..’…

over and over. The sound is deep and slow, resonating and soulful. The actors have gone quiet. I can only imagine the looks on their faces. I bet they are peeing in their togas. The drumming continues and our leader begins a guided meditation. It’s lovely. Now, sitting in the darkness I also have a drum but it doesn’t look like the others. I’ve got it in my lap, feeling my way around the top of it. It’s small and squat rather than wide. I’m suddenly wondering if my drum sounds like the others. Also I haven’t had any guidance on drumming before. Am I supposed to beat the same rhythm as the others or just improvise? Well…because I’m an idiot and because I come from a family of musicians I decide to embrace my hitherto unexplored natural drumming talents. I pick my moment to join the slow and majestic booming but rather than match the others, for some insane reason I decide to drum BETWEEN their beats, assuming mine will sound like theirs. Unfortunately as I begin, the rhythm bouncing around the room now sounds like this: …

“BOOM”…”plink plonk!”…”BOOM”…”plink plonk!”…”BOOM”…”plink plonk!”…

This is definitely not what I was hoping for. With every spiritual and resonating ‘BOOM’ everyone is now subject to my rather humorous comedy toy drum. And now we’re all in a rhythm, I can’t get seem to find my way out of it.

“BOOM”…”plink plonk!”…”BOOM”…”plink plonk!”…”BOOM”…”plink plonk!”…

Quite frankly I’m embarrassing myself. They must think I’m such an idiot. I’m glad the lights are off. We continue to drum and I’m finding it really hard to keep up because all of their drums are so beautiful and in low synchronicity together, but my drum sounds like it’s farting helium sweets in comparison. Then to make matters worse all the other drums start to speed up and to keep up I’m having to exert my little farting drum like a maniac, until ALL the drums start to blur into one majestical sound…and then everything stops.

But not without a few last manic parps from my own drum because of course I didn’t know that we were done.

Turns out I’m most definitely not any kind of drummer.

After we recover from the drumming, the lights are switched on and we prepare for the next lesson. We partner up as we are going to give each other a spirit reading using the techniques we’ve learned. We are told that it’s important to vocalize and keep talking about what you see and feel, because the more you vocalize the better everything flows. So after my partner has a go, under instruction I visualize centering myself and raising my energy and then when ready, I open a door in my mind. My partner helpfully suggests opening the door just a little bit but typical me, I choose to throw that door wide open.

And that’s when something ACTUALLY happens.

My body starts to vibrate very finely, from my boots up. All the way up my legs, through my body, along my arms and down to my fingers, up to my neck and up through the top of my head. Not massive vibrations like I’ve been attacked by a pneumatic drill, but most definitely a strong fine ‘thrumming’. It is a most unexpected feeling. So with my eyes wide I ask my partner what the heck is going on, and she says that the vibration is ‘their’ energy mixing with mine. Now this is what I’ve been hoping for. Some tangible ‘change’ in my physical world that I can see or feel, to prove that ‘something’ is happening. And here it is, actually happening. Amazing.

So ‘they’ are here then. Spirit. I can’t see anything out of the ordinary. But I’m really enjoying just feeling what I’m feeling. Next I’m encouraged to invite them to stand to my side, and hopefully they will somehow relate to the person sitting in front of me. I don’t have much sense of anyone here, but I vocalize and give her what I imagine that I CAN sense: a man holding out his hands with some material or something draped over them, stooped over. I can’t honestly say that this is MORE than my imagination, but then it is my first go. My partner can’t relate to what I am giving her unfortunately but I’m pretty chuffed regardless. Just feeling this marked physical change is enough to show me that SOMETHING is going on. We sit for a few more minutes and then the exercise is over.

Thank you, circle gang 🙂

I leave the session a bit bedazzled, get in the car in a giddy daze and drive home. Ever since, I’ve been wondering if I can replicate that sensation again, so I’ve been practicing, and at first I couldn’t do it. But now I feel it every day. Even when I’m not intentionally focusing on it. It’s a clear vibration, and it’s especially strong around my neck and my hands. How strange and curious. Perhaps there is a way forward for me using this? We’ll have to see what happens next.

So what do you think about this vibration thing? I’m totally not making this up, it’s very very real. 🙂

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Other things I’ve been doing recently:

1. Two medium readings.
2. Meditation.
3. Practicing gratitude.
4. Learning to shut up and listen more carefully.

Interestingly, I also recently participated in a 2 week online ‘ENERGY ALIGNMENT METHOD’ course. It has been a fascinating process, it’s all about the Law of Attraction. I didn’t actually manage to finish the whole course, but even with my partial knowledge it has started working for me, lots of things have moved forward since doing it and I can highly recommend it (and yes I did have to put my skepticism aside in order to take part!). I don’t know whether it was coincidence, but whilst doing the course, lots of material things that had been on my wish list for years actually finally manifested and are now in my life. Thanks Yvette Taylor for running this most unusual course! I’ll put some links on the blog when I get permission.

For one of you who wanted to know the specifics about the tarot reading I went for, (you know who you are ;-)) I haven’t found out how to translate my audio cd to text, but the one most memorable moment for me was when my tarot reader said:

“if you haven’t already booked your holiday this year then if it was me I really wouldn’t bloody bother, because you are going to have so much aggro at the other end it probably won’t have been worth the trip”.

So that’s enough about me this month, how have you lot been? Any close encounters of your own you feel ready to share? 🙂